Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Fly Away!

Fly Away

and he flew away! haha!

wasn't supposed to tear but that bloody idiot just had to say things that turned my yawnings into something more than they were supposed to be. he didn't get away scot-free either haha!

baby, i'm all ready.

i just need a webcam! =)

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Lost

Lost

life's pretty good at the moment, i'm very contented. even though i'm going real broke due to my lost wallet, lost camera, lost ipod, lost all identity cards and documents and paying for all the replacement fees and not getting any reimbursements at all.

but hell, fuck the one who picked up my stuffs. at least u could have sent back the documents you fucker.

and yes, kian finally got his fridge at the expense of my lost wallet hahahaha okay insider joke. but maybe it was because i lost my wallet, that's why i never kena the dropped ceiling on my head leh. sounds like i'm consoling myself.. well, i am!

hmm, so the fridge was paid for by teck soon (sorry but i'm not used to calling u jason! anyway you also dun care hahaha), iskandar, caleb, kenneth, weian and 2 other friends that i don't know but got the money anyway and last but not least... KIAN! actually i'm supposed to pay too.. but the two best mates decided that i'm so poor that i can't even afford my next meal so they gave me some leeway and offered to cock up my share. how nice!

and on wednesday i received one of the most valuable gifts of my life -- a ring and an important person's sincerity and true feelings. i'm keeping it well aight. =)


the imminent departure..

Saturday, January 20, 2007

i lost so many fucking things.




thank gawd for a great boyfriend and a great friend.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

just when i thought my life's gonna be a darkened backdrop, you came along and gave it some colours.


alas, time is not on our side, obviously.





but we're gonna take it like it is. =)

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

2 BBQs In A Row

2 BBQs In A Row

oh the bbq at kah how's chalet on sat night was cool as his friends were all so hospitable, even though we didn't know them at all.

one kept refilling drinks, one was stationed at the pit barbecueing food all the while, sweating like mad, and one was talking and trying to make us feel welcomed. food came plate after plate like magic. it's like after you finish the first plate, the next plate just came automatically.

one even overheard us ranting that we wanted to take the last train home, and reminded us that it was getting late and we needed time to get to the mrt station, while we were playing childish games like heart attack.

one offered to sent us to the mrt to cheong for the last train, and even told us to call them back if we missed it, which we eventually did.

and kah how, being the gentleman he is, sent us all back home by cab and even though we gave him money, he called me and forced me to give him my account number so that he can return us the money. the thing was, he went back to chalet after sending us home. can someone just imagine the cab fare? from the east to the west then back to the east again?


a short few hours made a difference in my thinking. if a friend could, others definitely can.



the second bbq at kian's house was funny. was chatting with kenneth online when he asked:

"who's there at his house?"

"weian and his gf, benny."

"weian is gay?"

i swivelled the chair with force and turned to face the rest in the room and burst out into laughter. what i meant was: there was weian and his gf AND benny. gawd, kenneth, you are one funny man. and all of them blamed me for my lousy english. i mean, who constructs a sentence with two "ands" inside?

so we slacked and watched benny play PS2 while i was dozing off and they took turns to laugh at me. and kian has orange smell shower foam. yucks. teck soon then performed stunts and i reached home at a freaking 6am. benny's singing sucks.

it was all in all, a very fun night haha! insider joke though, there are always spies around. =) ssshh.


fireworks like platters of bird shits.

Monday, January 01, 2007

The Usual Way

The Usual Way

driving down upper serangoon seems to have a different take on me today. instead of making a usual left turn after coming down from the highway, i took an unfamiliar right turn and found the way to kian's house.

alot of things went through my mind as i was cruising on the flyover. since i have found out things that i shouldn't be knowing because they were purposely being kept from me (i think they gotta try harder), i see no point in disclosing. things will be left the way they are now, because like i said, i've made up my mind. just know that i'm not gullible and i did not believe every word.

first impressions sometimes count, but sometimes they can fail you. then again, it's never too harmful to always get to know better. well, i took a long time and i actually knew it, but i was deluding myself after all.

i'm now at kian's house doing this post, and although this new year eve was a quiet one, at least i had a peace of mind because i knew what i was doing. the guys, though they kept eating, did a good job of keeping me occupied with their nonsense as my mind seldom wandered off to where i think it shouldn't be.

this year, no fireworks, no noise. but, a great sense of relief and maturity, with a great friend i know who'll be there to listen to my nonsense, even though he always say that it's not his problem. =)

let's do it by the rules: strike three, you're out.


hi, welcome. i'm glad that you have come to suffer in my place. i wish you good luck.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

i was forced to make up my mind.



so, i have made up my mind.
everything hurts.

i await someone to save me from this pit that i dug for myself.





i've done this before, and i'm doing it again. i'll probably do it for many more times.

stay SAA!

Monday, December 25, 2006

i feel like fuck and my day's like fuck.

my dates are like fuck and i think i ruined them fuck.

my boyfriend probably feels like fuck too because i ruined the day fuck.

and the thing is, i might not know because i don't even know if he feels fuck.

but i sure feel like fuck.

fuck this festive season.

This Christmas,

This Christmas,


i'm not merry at all.









but do you know?


a whole bunch of melancholic dramas but nothing's given a fucking damn.

i'm having a very good idea for a breakthrough in my life. this christmas eve's never gonna be the same.





life sucks this moment because you know what's coming but you can't stop it.