iSSy mISsY

i hate it when i missed blogging for a day, and i have so much to write that i simply do not know where to start from.. and i'll just keep on procrastinating my blogging exercise and it will finally snowball till one day when i simply have nothing better to do and that means.. NOW.

right, i have nothing to do at this moment, because i'm still waiting for my sister's lesson to be over before we can eat dinner at home TOGETHER.. that's the keyword.. it's been a long time since my family sat down together to have dinner.. SO.. yup~ :P

i'm really apologetic about the looooooooong missing post, as i swear, swore, and is still swearing, that i've already written one like 2 days ago, and when i hit the button "Publish Post", you can imagine, my com conked out. :(

what's up man?! school kicked off last week and i'm kind of enjoying it now.. had badminton for sports and wellness (although i had half a mind to change it to hip hop.. BUT nvm man.. thomas tan rules.. and i'm kidding) work is flooding in and i think i'll be stopping work for maybe a few weeks.. but i'll always have time for shopping, which reminds me that i need a few pairs of new jeans.. and skirts and.. well, i'll never have enough.

that boils down to getting money for my expenditure.. my allowance is still meagre, but i'll get thru it no problem.. i do hope that work comes at the right time (which is the time when i need money to buy new year clothes) and i'm going shopping this saturday with peck and yanty.. wonder wad's up man!!!

i have to inform u all that my com is NOT going to be ready in the near future, and i can only rely on the school's lousy computers (that are better than mine anyway so why am i complaining?!?!?) to blog in, which is like once in a green and pink moon.

bless ya all, i love guanyinma.
:D

PS : and at this moment i received my sis's sms telling me that she's home already. imagine my pissness. thanks man. *humph!*

jEalouSy oVerrIdEs me.

seems like the whole world went to jay's concert.. i hate to admit it.. but i am DAMN IT jealous.

jay is the first ever singer that makes me buy all his albums wholeheartedly.. ok.. not quite.. some were given as presents.. but his albums are the only ones that can make me really sit down, stare at the lyrics, and learn how to sing those songs..

talking about idols.. sylvester seems to be getting the hang of it.. ok i like him.. but i'm sure i will not buy his album.. he's simply just not there yet.. i shall not criticise..

and there's my childish OM.. he can be so lame at times!! my gawd.. 20 plus le (i'm not quite sure about his age) and he's still so childish.. saying things like 'i hate you' like a kid? erm.. *pondering*

hUH? wAd sIzE?? wAd coLoUR?

yes.. that's what i've been saying for almost a week.. like i said earlier.. i've been and STILL AM working intensively.. i have no idea why work has to come at this time when i would very much prefer to slack at home because school is reopening very soon.. but come to think of it.. the MAIN reason why i work is because of money right?? thinking of the materialistic items i could buy with this sum of money just simply perks me up..

work has been piling up and has even stretched to next mon (the day i've decided to go tanning with my fren).. i really wanted to earn those extra bucks.. but a promise is a promise.. i won't make promises that i can't keep.. SO.. there goes my day's earning.. but there will always be other days to work! it's not the end of my company.. haha.. and i am working right till the end of the school vacation.. for the first time in my education life.. i am actually elated that school is starting soon!! it's then back to lectures and tutorials (and i still hate them!).. and thinking of ways to pon them in order to catch the early bird special to sing ktv and blah.. hahaz.. sounds lame but it's quite fun..

and i almost forgot.. it's kenneth's birthday a few days ago! i'm really sorry about forgetting it.. i know he wouldn't mind!! just wanna wish ya a belated happy birthday yeah? hope you had fun.. was working so i forgot.. tried to make it a point to remember.. :)

new semester.. new clothes.. well.. it's just another blatant, lame, and crude reason for me to undergo retail therapy.. so.. there you go.. THAT'S the reason why shopping malls are getting more and more expansions with people like me around, who buy things for the slightest reasons (in other words, excuses..)..

well.. gotta go.. till i blog again! :P

LalAlA!~

hAha.. nicE?

eEniE mEenY mOnEy moRE!!!

lol.. such a lame title.. well it voices out the exact feeling i'm having now.. I WANT MORE MONEY!!

as the christmas bells ring.. more fashion apparel boutiques are coming out with better designs of clothes.. which in turn, try to burn a hole in my already-tattered-and-torn pocket.. NOW this is bad.. and THAT'S WHY.. i'm working intensively next week to really earn.. not that i'm scheduled to go for some christmas party so that i can doll myself up, but to satisfy my greedy urge to buy more and more stuff that i don't seem to need very much..

take today for example, i merely wanted to go for a movie with my mum.. yet i ended up spending about $60 plus.. bought a top from a top fashion apparel boutique.. sounds nice isn't it? but i had the top under staff purchase.. my fren was working there you see? haha.. and my mum likes it as well.. i din really need the top but it doesn't have her size.. SO.. i bought it.. yeah.. and another set of bikini seems redundant.. but i bought anyway.. cause it's never often that my mum agrees that i looked quite good in it.. and i bought some loose powder because i realise that 2 way foundation cake isn't really good for my skin, and i shall use it only for important dates.. haha.. loose powder seem to clog my pores lesser..

working seems boring.. well again, work is never easy right? i'm sure i'll be able to tide through this boring week and come to think of it.. taking A levels seem much more tormenting.. so.. yeah.. working is easy.. moreover i'm getting paid! chicken feet.. *keeps fingers crossed*..

on a lighter note, i'll be able to go tanning soon!! maybe next next mon.. i hope the sun will be really good.. i so DO NOT want a lousy and uneven tan!! how i wish singapore would allow nukey tanning.. but on the other hand, i'm not that sure whether i'll try it out in public.. =P

shall update asap.. sayOOOOOnara!

mY beST fRenS!

haha isn't this sweet?

s0 lOnG~..

=).. been working hard these few days.. not for my company though.. for my dad.. lol~

well, i've been out working for him since like really young (though i couldn't help much.. just merely existed and sitting around on the van).. and i din really helped him alot when i was younger.. coz he does those hard labour.. but NOW, i did WORK ok? in science, work means an object really moves around.. SO, i moved around i swear.. just carrying carpets and stuff (they're really heavy!!).. then applying glue.. covering them with plastic.. pure hard labour.. although the pay wasn't alot compared to what i could have earned, it's really satisfying.. especially able to help my dad in some way or another.. and i realise.. he's getting old..

after sitting at home for so long (my couch's getting really hot...hot seat).. i'm finally working again this weekend!! getting lazy though.. was thinking twice and many many times whether i should work or slack when they called me.. but i decided~ why slack at home when i can get money? =)

my fren's mother passed away.. wasn't really close, but i could feel her grief though.. and now the tv's showing jingwen's father passed away.. somehow i think life is really fragile.. and people can still take it for granted and do nasty things.. well i dun give a damn now.. they can waste life away for all i care~

shall go and chat with my fren~ so long~

wEe WeE!!

haha.. it's blogging time!! going gaga.. lol~

been shopping todae (i've been shopping practically everyday so this is redundant!! =P).. making my legs going wobbly! lol~.. saw oto and osim having some exhibition (or rather atrium promotion.. or wadever... i dunnoe what those events are called..) so i went on to try on their new massaging machines.. i prefer osim's iSqueeze though.. it covers the massaging of the calves but it doesn't really emphasise on the feet.. the massaging of the calves was oooh aaah.. *groans*.. ok.. before this gets anymore explicit.. lol~.. anyway.. that bloody machine was really great.. after using it when i got up.. i feel that my legs were much lighter! not physically of course.. but it's not that tiring anymore.. and it really works and helps! so those who are often tired because of a day's shopping, try that for free.. hah! selling retail at $588 though.. it's a luxury item so the only times i will use it are the times when osim will have such events and i will rush there and use it for free!!! (sounds so damn gian peng.. but i dun care!)

been slacking for weeks.. somehow it feels great though (i always thought i must be kept busy!) just staying at home and stoning.. staring at the tv but nothing goes in.. and time just pass by LIKE THAT.. it's quite fun.. but alas.. i must be called to work tmr.. well.. not really work.. just helping my dad there and then.. but with pay! lol~.. very bad rite? but i'm incomeless for weeks.. so yeah! *sheepish grin*

benjy benjy benjy!!! don't forget our movie! lol~ the doll master! can't wait to watch it! you better hurry study finish so that i can go watch.. or else i won't wait for u! and really surprisingly, my mum wanna watch princess diaries! she's given the imperial edict for me NOT to watch it with anybody else but her! lol~..

wanted to tan today but woke up late! haiz~.. wasted chance! haha.. can't wait to get myself a really nice golden tan.. even my toes! but somehow the weather these few days has been quite unpredictable.. one moment you'll see great sun and i'll start packing up.. the next moment the rain comes and i'll start unpacking.. like DUH~

yawn~ in a pretty good mood to sleep today! slept at 2am last nite.. chatting up with frens.. till i blog in the next time!

waKE mE uP!

what have i been doing man?! waiting to come online everyday.. and i know perfectly well what i was waiting for.. haiz~

this sucks.. i should not have done it.. should have acted nonchalant.. like surfing around aimlessly.. (or rather, with an aim that i refused to admit).. compelling myself to read lousy mags that would at least keep me busy for one hour or less.. (i merely flipped through them.. looking for new fashion icons that i swear i would NOT follow..) even to the extent of borrowing mags from steph to keep myself really occupied.. i need a break!

havent been swimming since my illness has started.. really miss it.. hope i can get back to it someday.. and really soon.. i need to get a breather! i need to go somewhere new.. so that i can take my own sweet time and explore that bloody place and perhaps, get myself lost for once..

i'm supposed it's time to hit my driving test book.. but i'm just too lazy! mum has been nagging about it.. dad even offered to reward me with $1000 cash if i get my driving license with a pass at the first time.. i'm not feeling the encouragement though.. i connecting it with stress.. i need the cash badly! i wanna do something with it.. god knows what!

save me from depression.. it's devouring me.. (ok, i'm exaggerating it).. but it's not really far from it! give me something to do at least! (i've washed all the fans in my house yesterday.. they were really dirty and dusty!).. probably i shall experiment on a new recipe! or make fun of ronald down at macdonald's.. i miss that though.. how about getting drunk?.. would love to try.. but i dun think i will.. probably i will be a disciple of my kiddy neighbour and try to kill my dad's dying pet fish with a metal ruler by poking them in the poor stomachs.. they looked frail.. (blame it on my dad.. the water is turning GREEN and he is doing nothing about it!!.. he claims : "you can't change the water often!! they will DIE!!!!"... WELL.. in MY opinion, it you DO NOT change the water, THEN they will die.. prayers for the poor fish~

and you!!! stop bothering me!! i've kind of had enough.. i cant stand your nonsense!! ok.. i'm kidding.. but please spare me!! haha..

am i going mad? what kind of bloody entry is this.. i bet you all cant understand it.. haha

getting my pay puts me on cloud 9.. although its not alot, but hey! it's a start!!

reNaiSSaNcE...

i'm supposed to turn in early tonite.. because of my illness.. but i'm staying up to blog this..

someone who has lost contact with me suddenly regained contact after what seemed like a long time.. it feels weird to talk again because we have had misunderstandings about each other.. finally she has cleared her thoughts and pretended nothing really ever happened.. well in one way i'm glad about that.. but in another way i hoped that she had never tried to contact me at all.. it sounds selfish and snobbish.. but i really didn't know what to say to her? "oh.. hi, how are you?".. or things like "oh it's been such a long time since i saw you!!"???.. so fake.. things that i'd do over my dead body..

unknowingly we were talking like it's back to the old days when there were no conflicts.. she was like so chattery and i kind of unexpected it.. i had to respond to her using the same wavelength and frequency or it would sound damn awkward.. there were like pauses in between and i had to use old-fashioned pause-fillers like 'erms' and 'orhs' to keep it going.. quite a tedious task that is.. wish i'll never have to do it again..

through experience.. if you see something that is quite a pain to the eyes.. look at it a few more times and you'll feel numb.. strong emotions are often developed through aggressive anger which is formed during quite a short time.. try to extend it and relax.. you'll find yourself coming to terms with it and often understand more things by looking through different perspectives.. in your haste to 'delete' something you dun wanna see, you are actually escaping.. the best remedy is to face it, take a good look at it.. and you'll find that it's actually nothing much.. it's no more than just a 'PAH!'.. a hard fact..

take care buds.. who knows when my com will break down again.. till i blog in.. PEACE~