feVEr.

feVEr.

ok i'm blogging.

I'M RUNNING A FEVER.

as i mentioned (if i didn't), the vomitting + superb migraine + partial blindness + cold sweat thingy happens to me once in a blue moon.. it's not the first time, and i know this isn't going to be the last anyway.. come to think of it, since young i've always thought i'd die young.. oh well, it's just a sort of thinking.. maybe i tend to think too much but you'll start thinking of stuff like "what if i die? what will happen? will people actually come to my funeral?" that sort of things.. CHOI.

but i digress.

after the sudden sickness on sat, by evening time i was fine (as in no more shudders, no more vomitting).. i remembered the last time i had it, 2 days later exactly the same time i had a relapse.. means the symptoms all came back again, which was why i missed the BAOC sentosa outing during october last year.. so i was really cautious and taking note, whether the relapse will come on monday, which is yesterday. well, morning was fine, but i was really looking out for the time 3-4pm.. so by 4pm, everything was ok just that i was getting a little lethargic.. so i took a nap, woke up around 5pm for dinner. hai, that's when the heavy feeling in my head settled in.. nevertheless i ate dinner and was feeling that my temperature was going up.

the thing is, my parents make such a big fuss out of being sick, that even if i realise that i'm sick, i don't dare tell them. get it right, is don't dare, not don't want. :( i don't know what other parents do when their children get sick, perhaps they shower their children with concern and blah, but my parents, hurhur, the first thing they'd do if they know you're sick is to SCOLD. wahaha, okay i know they're concerned, but this isn't exactly the best time i can listen to your lectures because i'm too feverish to know what's going on?

i digressed, again.

this time, they didn't scold. luckily. but i think they expected it. hurhur. i've been sleeping late, not eating right, already had what seemed to be like an incurable sore throat, it's not hard to expect that i'll be sick anyway. so i went to bed last night at about 9pm i think? that's damn early. it's because my temperature was 37.8 so i popped in a panadol, hoping that the heat wouldn't burn my brain up. i still want my brain to function properly. anyway, i tossed and turned, couldn't get to sleep.. it was so hot that i could feel the heat right up to my fingertips. i didn't want to move around alot because the bedsheets were already so warm with my body temperature. so you could see that it was really uncomfortable for me last nite. anyway, i didn't sleep alot, despite me being in bed really early, because i kept waking up. i had lotsa phlegms in my throat that i had to wake up and spit them out. PLUS i have a cough so it was really -urgh- torturing. somehow, if i remembered, i think i coughed a phlegm right onto my own face which woke me up. YUCKS. disgusting. but i wiped it off anyway. =0

then i think about 5am, i woke up again to go to the toilet.. i'm having constipation, so i took the chance to see if anything will come out of my bowels. if i hadn't mentioned it before, my legs get cramps very easily, especially if i sit in the same position for a long time. so most of the time my legs are having cramps while i'm sh*tting. last night wasn't an exception. but after sitting in there for so long, nothing was produced so i gave up. while standing up i felt giddy, went to drink a cup of water (and i still felt giddy), my eyes were starting to black out and i made my way back to my room. when i reached the doorway of my room i slammed flat onto the ground. i think i fainted (i'm not sure, i wasn't really conscious at that point of time) but woke up like 3 seconds later, because of the pain in my knees. i must have fainted then, because up till now i still feel the pain in my knees. then i noticed that my dad woke up, he must have been alerted by the loud "THUD!" i gave when i fell. i lay on the floor, too lazy to move back to my bed, or rather should i say, i have no energy to move back to my bed. my legs were feeling too weak with the cramps. so i just stayed there, not really moving. well, my dad just took a look at me and when back to sleep. erm, he's just too used to me and mavis's weird sleeping positions to notice that i've got to be really weird to move from one place to another. oh well, i rested on the floor for awhile before making my way back to my bed. ah, that's when i really managed to sleep better.

my temperature is back to 37.0 degrees again, seems that my fever is gone. my head still feels heavy and my throat isn't any better. i'm still producing lotsa phlegms (yucks!) but my cough seems to have subsided.. i hope i'm not speaking too early. AND, i HAVEN'T seen a doctor. doctors are a last resort to me, panadols are my first choices.

hey guys, sorry for not joining you all for table tennis today.. =( this is not fair! i organised it yet i can't make it?! argh, go again sometime next week okie? hurhur. i'm afraid that the hot weather might just bring my fever back again, so i need to recuperate till i'm in tip-top condition before i can go for the chalet in may.. =) and heard that nicole is sick, has a fever like me too. is there some kind of virus going around?

everyone please take care and quoting anthea, kian, clemmie, gab and josh, "drink lotsa lotsa water". you all know that the weather these few days are terrible.. i'm drinking alot, and let's just hope that the next time i blog, i'm able to tell you all that i'm feeling better. =)

th: i'm sorry that i wasn't able to visit you at your house yesterday, i wasn't feeling too well and i had to get my PDL.. hope you and your family are feeling better and coping well.

szeling just had to tell me that she ate stingray yesterday. hey, don't you forget i was the one who fed you this delicious mouthful of stingray back in KL when you almost couldn't eat anything else. hurhur. >.<

you're the reason that i'm the way i am.