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these are getting to me, i'm all enthusiastic about anything but studying.

ever since i've gotten a haircut i've been spending my days looking at my hair again and again.. not that it's very nice, but it's new. it's the kind of orientation feeling that you get when u've just entered a new school.. you feel fresh. haha. i think partly it's because mavis is not around and there's simply nobody for me to shout at and to scold!

went studying on mon with peck, and it turned out quite fruitless.. i was unable to concentrate and peck was restless too.. so we went over to orchard and walked around before her new-found best fren fat matt came along and had already decided to buy a 'swatch' for her (it was supposed to be a 'tag heuer', ultra fast degradation, hur hur :P) which she humbly declined the present and i guessed the 'swatch' at heeren did not earn fat matt's money as well.. i felt weird walking around with the two of them so i took a chance to get away and went strolling around heeren myself. it felt good though. afterwhich she called me to ask me where i am, do you really think i'll follow them?! or course not! so i told her i was going home soon, so she just said 'ok, bye!' *shattering hearts* a damn it serious case of 重色轻友.. haha! now why did i use the word 'guessed'? now i'll tell you why. it's because i can't stand the face of fat matt, someone who thinks he has more coins clanking in his pocket than anybody else, (in his case, maybe notes $$) not that i hate him, i just dislike him, period. no reasons why.

allrite, maybe some. peck is becoming someone we're getting strange to. she's not herself anymore, and we do hope that this is only temporary. not that we crave for your attention or what, there are some things in which it's not necessary to put it across verbally. as best friends for 6 years and moving on into the 7th one, we trust that we do not need to tell you what's proper and prim or what's wrong and unduly. besides, you're the oldest among us and the most matured one, so we expect you to be able to sort things out and know what's right.

not that fat matt is a bad person, we just need some getting used to. hah, sounds like we're grimacing over some lack of concern from peck, but that's not the point. i seriously think that peck, if you're reading this, you need some time and personal space for yourself, because always seeing from other people's view isn't gonna be a long term plan. even if fat matt can make u laugh every minute, so what? there'll be a time when all the jokes run out and he's just yet another plain man. i know you're feeling contempt for being out of love, but think again? who hasn't?! you're just yet another one of those unlucky ones who met the wrong person. if you think you're just suay, think me. think lena. think pj. even if you feel you're going thru some vicissitudes of life now, when you grow older and look back, it's no big deal.

so much for lamenting. we just want you back. the normal bouncy you. full stop. and if fat matt ever comes across this, i fully welcome him. :)

went shopping yesterday with my cousin, met cole and passed her THAT CHAPTER 2 (shudders) VOUCHER while continuing my hunt for earrings. bought 3 pairs yesterday, in a happy mood, all's well but my period. irritating ass! saw a pair of colourful slippers that i really like over at taka, selling at $12.90, i guess that's quite reasonable, but considering the amount of footwear that i have, this particular pair seems like a luxurious item more than anything else :P

mum is having a headache these few days, and i thought it was only appropriate for me to stay at home and kind of look after her, well, not that i've done alot, she still did the housework and stuff, but hey! at least if she faints at home, i know rite? *hahaha!* so kind of stoned at home, did the school's elective thing (i chose IEF), and rot in front of my tv, mouth wide open all day long. lol. except when i went to ntuc to buy sanitary pads (which i ran out of) and bought a WHOLE lot of them, worth $30 plus. :P *sheepish grin*

gh asked me out tmr, but i'm booked. tmr's my shopping day with my pals, so too bad! :P i sincerely hope that i do not meet irritating sales persons, they make me feel damn peeved and gripey. stop standing super near to me (think of OB's proximity theory) and stop following me around, i have a shadow for that, and even she takes a day off on non-sunny and non-lightings days.

i've finally settled on a fixed way of styling my hair, that is to push the rest of my hair back and keep it up, pull the fringe down, and makes the ends curls a bit facing out. sounds arduous. but that's what hairs are for. they're troublesome. you love and hate them, and constantly want to change them.

wishlist:
-- a light light damn light coloured denim skirt
-- vintage belt
-- more tops
-- hair clay and hairspray
-- more ear studs.. big ones!
-- be happy everyday
-- more perseverance to study!!!

mavis will be coming home tmr night, i wonder if there's any presents for me?

so long, shall turn in for the night, cheers to tmr!

legend:
grey : been there, done that, got it
red : unattainable
lavender or turqiose : under construction