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i have no idea why he picks on me. note: present tense.

just because you quarrelled with some fucking relative you think you can vent your anger on me? just because i did not do things fast enough according to your speed you think you can scream the hell out? fine, if what i do isn't to your taste, DON'T SEE. if i don't do things fast enough, DON'T ASK ME TO DO. don't get me to do something, only to scold and complain after that. and to think i tried to cook dinner while i'm free, not that i want to boast, but do you see mavis doing that? NO. do you appreciate it? NO. do you criticise every single shit? YES. i believe you might want to eat shit too.

i'm not someone whom you can vent your anger on. i'm not an animal. when you get pissed off you fucking scold me, then what? when i'm pissed can i scold you back? NO. what can i do? all i can do is to be a coward, go into the toilet, slam the toilet cover down, sit on it and tell myself to calm down before i start throwing everything i see and start to rebuut you. i clenched my fists so tight that my nails penetrated into my palms. but i did not feel the pain. all i felt was ANGER. this is not the first time. just because i'm at home so i'm dispensable and able to let you holler at? FINE. i'll make myself scarce.

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on a lighter note, i know i haven't been blogging for almost a week.

it was shopping day with mum on sat, and my aim was to spend away those wisma vouchers. but i ended up buying stuff WITHOUT using the vouchers. -_- so it's still intact. but now i have plans for those. so don't come asking me for them HUH! bought a mango top and a skirt. changed into them immediately when gab called me if i wanted to go clubbing with them. hah. rouge's definitely too hip-hop for me. but nevertheless, i did enjoy myself. virgin mary is nice, gab. HAHA. i love the salt. and yes i saw christopher from srjc. been so long since i saw anyone from there, not to mention donkey la, he not counted HAHA. nicole came to join us at around 3am, supposed to go music underground, but alas, we were suay that night, they checked IDs so gab and clem were bounced out. HAHA. but me and nicole did go in and took a peek. free entry, so why not? super techno. haha. but i was quite tired so everyone started to go home.. i was surprised that my cab fare was only $5.40. i expected more. hurhur.

spent the sunday checking my com. right, i retract what i said a few posts ago that my com 'is fine already'. IT IS NOT. system restores definitely take up too much space. i was supposed to have 27-30GB of free space in my C drive. when i checked the space again, i got a mild heart attack after seeing it was left with only 2.56GB. so what i can do now is to borrow thumb drives from everyone, and start saving my important documents, songs and pictures, before i send this stupid computer for reformatting and start throwing the stuff back in. it is still usable, except that it takes like 10 minutes to set up and another 5 to load? even compressing files can take me half an hour. i'm being skeptical about this post. i don't even know whether it'll get posted or not. but heck, i'll just try my luck. thanks to kian, th, sze, ah bu and kit for lending me your thumb drives. it'll take a few days. i'll try my best to return them to you asap. and special thanks to clem for helping me burning my pictures into CDs. thanks alot man.

supposed to go bowling on mon when no idea why clem did not come school. and so he was having diarrheoa (i can never spell that word correctly, SO, is it correct NOW?) and after lesson we walked around bukit timah plaza with hongjun, kian, gab, noorin and th, saw chen liping and her husband, haha. that we decided to walk to the railway track and explore abit. but the weather was horrendous and i was wearing slippers, so it wasn't the perfect gear. the rest wanted to climb bukit timah hill but i was having second thoughts. HAHA, lazy. so we decided to go to macritchie and try out the 11km trail.

and so we did, supposed to meet at 8am, but i was early (-_-, no prizes for guessing WHY.) and yes, we conquered the trail except that we did cheat abit coz we took the lornie trail as a shortcut. kian was going to be late and he might just miss his boat. haha, and i was super hungry you see, most of us did not have breakfast. 3.5 hours for 9km, i supposed that's quite slow. haha, we saw some aunties walking even faster than us. LOL. so we went over to black canyon for lunch, the rest were going swimming and i decided to give it a skip so i went home. i slept immediately after that haha.

stayed at home the whole day yesterday, did housework. haha. was bored i guess.

my com is still very much spoilt, i'll try to update as soon as possible. i have loads of pictures to show you all, but this isn't the right time to do it. hope my com can come back brand new and virus-free!

i'm going shopping with nicole later and meeting kit for dinner. shopping rawks.

till i blog again.

*to the peeps: I CAN'T WAIT! URBAN NINJA!!!!!! =D

i wanna fly away.