sHrUgS

sHrUgS

a week since i blogged.

stuffs happened, mugging, staying-overs, lack of food, etc.

i'm kind of exhausted.

history repeats. not the very-old ones. just about a year ago.

oh well. i'm not the kind that fights my way through. if it comes, it comes. no use battling your way in.

i'm tired. really. i seem to have anorexia now. no appetites. *shrugs*

ARGH. i don't know what's wrong with me. why can't i be like other girls? why can't i just live my life happily ever after? the more i want to get away, the more it comes to me. and when it comes to me, only then i realise it's not the way i want it to be.

are you all, all for the idea if i can change my memory like some portable hard disk? only remember the things that i want, those that i don't like, trash them it all into the recycle bin.

what a pit i've gotten myself into. too much self-delusion.

there's nobody i can bare my heart to. the only one, is the wrong one.

tell me. how sad is that.

living life like that, is worse than not living at all.