yOu miGhT cOnsIdEr gEttINg LosT

yOu miGhT cOnsIdEr gEttINg LosT

okie, tons of fun over. now, time to get really emo. -___-

i had a couple of things in my mind that i actually took time to remember that i HAVE to blog about this. but somehow in one way or another, celebrations overwhelmed me, and i completely forgot about it. the celebrations were in an extremely opposite tone of what i had in mind though. what a contradiction.

ah. i'm alone. note: alone means that numerically, you are the only person at some place, at some time. but, lonely means more than that. it means you, indeed, are also the only person at some place, at some time, AND you are craving for some company.

ok, i revise, i'm lonely. -_-

oh well. it's queer how people's tastes change dramatically. i guess it's the environment and peer pressure sometimes. what is nice to you, might be disgusting to others. like how i love green. people just had to criticise that it's a revolting colour. ah, who cares. but what you said, hurts. just that i choose whether to acknowledge or not. normally, i'd pretend that i never heard it, but my ears are not exactly that deaf yet, so there is absolutely no need for you to shout, thank you very much.

ok, outta point.

i believe that in some point of time, you will find a day when everything just seems sucky. parents are making a fuss out of every nitty gritty dung. siblings are irritating every fucking shit out of you. friends just DO NOT understand you, but they PRETEND to be. enemies, they are the worst, they don't even try to aggravate you. instead, they stand there, watching you, and laughing AT you. HA HA HA.

but i choose to ignore. please don't sing in my tune by saying ignorance is bliss. i'm so sick and tired of that. oppose me. come on, i need a quarrel badly to frustrate. anyone who needs to have a big fight, please come and find me. best if i'll break into tears after that. i'll thank you and we'll have coffee.

i woke up at 8am, all ready for my driving lesson which starts at 9am, and was equipped with my laptop and all, coz i thought we were heading to school for project. but when i finished my lesson, anthea called and said everyone was doing it at home and she asked if i wanna do at home as well. i was thinking why not, since my desktop is much more efficient than the stupid pieces of plastic i was carrying.

i got home, realised that my mum was going out, sis was going out, ah, at least dad wasn't. asked him if he wanna go buy the digital camera like NOW. no reply. then he sent mum to the mrt station, which i thought he'd come back in ten minutes since the mrt station is only 10 minutes walk from my house, so needless to say, the drive would be fast. that was at about 12.30pm.

waited.

waited.

waited.

dad rushed home, he seemed to be in a hurry, motioned to me that he needed the loo badly. i merely nodded my head. i mean, errr, what else can i do? the toilet door is well opened for you. it mimes, "WELCOME".

oh, and did i mention that it was 3.15pm when he came home?

i didn't know that novena mrt was so far away. i could have gone to jurong and back with that amount of time on hand.

all the while i was thinking that he would come back really soon and bring me to go get the camera together. and perhaps fix my hp.

and when i confronted him about it, he said while sitting down, "OH WELL, we can go now if you want!"

*snap* he fell asleep after switching on the tv, and watching it for only 3 minutes.

i didn't even have lunch. i thought we could eat together.

whatever. really. you complained that i'm coming home late and blah. and when i'm take time out to spend time with you all, you all.... i'd rather not think about it.

and the last thing i want now, is to have you borrowing this, borrowing that from me. AT THIS POINT OF TIME.

i'm pissed. so get lost. time to hit the sack.

later.









**the only thing i learnt in lecture yesterday. it's neither relevant nor important. but i took note of it anyway. >.<

if this world does not suck, you will fall off.