waKE mE uP!

what have i been doing man?! waiting to come online everyday.. and i know perfectly well what i was waiting for.. haiz~

this sucks.. i should not have done it.. should have acted nonchalant.. like surfing around aimlessly.. (or rather, with an aim that i refused to admit).. compelling myself to read lousy mags that would at least keep me busy for one hour or less.. (i merely flipped through them.. looking for new fashion icons that i swear i would NOT follow..) even to the extent of borrowing mags from steph to keep myself really occupied.. i need a break!

havent been swimming since my illness has started.. really miss it.. hope i can get back to it someday.. and really soon.. i need to get a breather! i need to go somewhere new.. so that i can take my own sweet time and explore that bloody place and perhaps, get myself lost for once..

i'm supposed it's time to hit my driving test book.. but i'm just too lazy! mum has been nagging about it.. dad even offered to reward me with $1000 cash if i get my driving license with a pass at the first time.. i'm not feeling the encouragement though.. i connecting it with stress.. i need the cash badly! i wanna do something with it.. god knows what!

save me from depression.. it's devouring me.. (ok, i'm exaggerating it).. but it's not really far from it! give me something to do at least! (i've washed all the fans in my house yesterday.. they were really dirty and dusty!).. probably i shall experiment on a new recipe! or make fun of ronald down at macdonald's.. i miss that though.. how about getting drunk?.. would love to try.. but i dun think i will.. probably i will be a disciple of my kiddy neighbour and try to kill my dad's dying pet fish with a metal ruler by poking them in the poor stomachs.. they looked frail.. (blame it on my dad.. the water is turning GREEN and he is doing nothing about it!!.. he claims : "you can't change the water often!! they will DIE!!!!"... WELL.. in MY opinion, it you DO NOT change the water, THEN they will die.. prayers for the poor fish~

and you!!! stop bothering me!! i've kind of had enough.. i cant stand your nonsense!! ok.. i'm kidding.. but please spare me!! haha..

am i going mad? what kind of bloody entry is this.. i bet you all cant understand it.. haha

getting my pay puts me on cloud 9.. although its not alot, but hey! it's a start!!