I should recognise the fact that this isn't about me anymore. I feel a sense of strong urge to leave this place, immediately without anyone. Not a single one who cares.

You have been awesome and awful at the same time. How is that even possible? I stretched myself to limits that I have never ever visited in my whole life and it still isn't enough. I am on the brink of falling over and losing myself to someone/something that I don't recognise and yet this isn't about me.

Never mind if I am incoherent because this is a downright mess right from the start.