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i can't believe how pissed i am, or rather, how pissing people can be.

no offence but i simply HATE IT when people are late for dates or meetings CONSISTENTLY, making promises that they can't keep, and procrastinate as and when they like. I've got very low tolerance for such things and i admit that i'm, in fact, a very bad tempered girl. a VERY bad tempered one. i get impatient very easily, i lose my temper easily, but i know, one good thing is that i forget about the whole bad incident very easily.

but it really incurs my wrath when someone does not take his or her promises seriously.. not that i value each and one of them very much (if i were to do that, so many people will be breaking their promises!), but it just infuriates me that people dun seem to be taking wad they've said seriously.. they mainly just pacify the others, turn their heads away and simply forget what they have just said. i would say that this is a very NO-NO for me because as nonsensical as i may seem to everyone, i take my words seriously and i dare say i dun make promises that i can't keep.

perhaps it's my family upbringing, i like to settle everything really fast and get everything done asap. i dun like to procrastinate and it's certainly NOT my habit to do so. that explains why i hate people who procrastinate and leave everything to be done last minute. ok, perhaps once or twice is really fine, but consistently is no excuse. HEY!! it's not a very nice habit u noe??? and i'm feeling pissed about it because i thought it was not really very nice of u to have kept on procrastinating but i thank u because u took the effort to return me the stuff and u were doing me a favour last time after all, so i really wanna say a BIG 谢谢 to you.. however, i still have to say that that's really one very bad habit of yours and you should really kick that habit.. well, it's still a suggestion (not advice) after all and it's up to u to listen (not heed).. and i do hope i'll get my discman back tmr and i guess everything will be fine and back to normal (thankfully!) i won't be surprised if i do not see my pok discman back in place, i just hope that it will come back to me in the end.

and i stress, although i lose my temper easily, i forget about such unhappy things pretty easily as well.

as luck would have it, my course requires me to study organisational behaviour and that kind of helped me coz right now, we're studying perceptions and basically it just encourages us to think from other people's points of view.. so when i'm angry or wad, i do take a deep breath and use my thing up there in my head. but 你知道的啦, it's quite hard to think logically when you're damn angry and piping hot so normally i'll either rattle on or just shut up and show a black face.. so i'm not trying to say that i'm very level-headed or i'm simply perfect (i insist that nobody is perfect), but at least try to understand people's feelings and you'll be much more at ease.

ok, this post is not about some personal attack, just to vent a little of my frustrations and i'll be fine. 我会消气的。

on a lighter note, christmas is coming and surprisingly i have no mood for it. probably it's because it's school term and there's not much 喜气 in the school. but my actions seem to be contradicting what i'm proclaiming because i have been shopping for the whole week.. lotsa money spent on shopping malls and i 发誓 what i bought were luxury items. wad a 败家女 i am. 哈哈!

have been hanging out with cole quite often this week and i think she's lovely. a very sensible girl with enough brains in her head and we almost have the same taste for earrings! :) as for anthea, *sigh* if i can ever live a day without she slipping/falling down/breaking something/toppling a glass/laughing out loud (at others), i think i'm gonna strike lottery.. really soon.. and szeling.. what a girl! she's the first girl that i know who simply hates shopping and i guess the only one who really entertains anthea and her antics.. lol.. noorin with the big hair.. cool girl she is.. a dance fanatic and she's a level above me in terms of earrings.. and very BIG ONES at that!

i guess i'm gonna stop here and start packing for tmr's lessons.. dear guanyinma do bless me with good luck and i wanna strike lottery really soon! merry christmas!! :D

PS: xian, when are we going to take the drving theory man?! =?